Posting this from tweetie 2.1 on my iPhone – as always, remember to experiment for yourself
What if you were just plain not good at some passion or hobby that you love?
It’s a question that came to mind recently. Especially with my last blog post. My intention with that last post was to build momentum behind some ideas I (and some friends of mine) had; a sort of rally cry.
But here I am months later, school semester fully underway, and work rapidly picking up steam. I can’t help but to look back at that and ask myself, am I too ambitious? Or is the reality that I just lack good ideas worth executing?
I feel like pursuing entrepreneurship would be tantamount to “finding my calling.”
But what if I’m no good at it? What if I can’t think of any good ideas?
Given the knowledge that you’re a “sucky entrepreneur,” do you push on anyway?
If it brings fulfillment, maybe you should…
This thought is a bit of a follow up from the previous post.
I’m a not a very traditional engineer in a lot of ways. I suck at simple arithmetic, I’m very extroverted, I get bored by tedious & repetitive tasks, and I’m very into artistic expression. But one trait that fits the bill is that I’m a very analytical person. I follow a very stoic and logical philosophy when it comes to my approach to life. But I’m also a hypocrite in that I’m a very emotional being… more on that later.
I’ve been spending a lot of mental capital on figuring out what my next step should be and a lot of that debate is centered around the contrast between instinct & advice or common wisdom. I have a strong interest in starting a venture; of course, the right way to go about doing this is to study up on how business are funded, how venture capital works, get an MBA, analyze the prevailing market trends and, of course, drink from the firehouse of information that’s out there about current or formerly successful entrepreneurs. Like I said, I’m going to do this thing right if I’m going to do it.
But here goes the problem, there is no “right.” There’s only did, or didn’t. Logic follows that startups fail more than they succeed and any analysis of the situation will always bring you to the same logical conclusion. Don’t.
So I return where I left off at the part about being a creature of emotion. I love my job right now. In fact, it’s my dream job. It’s very challenging, very dynamic, offers endless learning opportunities, and I’m highly respected by my colleagues. As I write this, I’m 27 years old and am blessed with such an amazing life; but, if I just work for the rest of my life, I’ve basically reached my peak. Sure, I’ll finish grad school and make more money and gain more responsibility, but I’ve cleared a lot of the greatest hurtles to success. I have to stop thinking through this so much and I have start getting emotional!
I recently watched this video from my youth again and realized that success isn’t enough, I have to do great things. I had suppressed my memories from my childhood so much that I forgot how much of a fighter and survivor I was and had to be to make it through that crap. I can’t waste all that effort on complacency & a BMW M3, I have to act! I need to be young, stupid, bold and naive. I need to try to reinvent the world and be so ignorant that I think I can!
Let’s go!
One of the topics that I keep revisiting in my mind is the concept of reinventing the wheel. On the one hand, I want to use whatever ground work that has been laid before me and I want to learn from other peoples mistakes; on the other hand, I want to trust my instincts and work through problems my own way so that I can foster creativity & innovation.
Sometimes we need to challenge the convensional way of doing things because those methods were developed under a different set of constaints and, therefore, had different limitations build in. Othertimes, we can work & think more efficiently if we use solutions to problems that were created through generations of iterations of trial and error.
What’s the best approach?
It’s been a long time since I posted an update. The beginning of this year ended up being a whirl-wind of events and it just didn’t provide the kind of environment for me to keep on top of the website. Don’t worry though, I still have long term goals for this as a placeholder for a lot of new thoughts and ideas. So don’t give up on me yet.
In the mean time, keep up with me on twitter by clicking on my feed to right, and stay tuned because I’m going to be opening up some time to put some of my thoughts here soon.
Somewhere along the line, I’ve been labeled as a pretty calm and collective guy buy my friends, and people who are generally close to me. I always chocked it up to the fact that I’m kind of a science guy who likes to take a Spock-like logic and reason based approach to life. But I came across a thought recently while talking with my partner, about relative levels of stress (her baseline ability to be stressed out is a bit higher than mine).
The conversation came to light while talking about focus. She’s at that point where a lot of things are beginning to converge; mainly keeping up with matters of career, health, relationship and just life in general. There are so many things going on in life right now that things can get really overwhelming very quickly.
So the question came up about how am I able stay focused even though I spend the entire week away from home and I spend all day Saturday in school? I hadn’t really thought of it because my life was so busy, I was just going with the flow (so it seemed). But it was at that point where I fully realized how stressed out I was (am). See, it’s not that I’m a too cool fool, it’s that I’m so sensitive to stress that I employ all of my essence to extinguishing whatever in my life is causing me stress.
So what’s the take home message?
I’ve always had this belief that stress should be avoided at all costs and that somehow, if you ever got stressed out, you were less of a person for not being able to “handle your shit.” Maybe we shouldn’t be so averse to stress, maybe that’s the way our bodies and minds let us know what we should be working on and striving for. Let’s embrace our stress, acknowledge its existence, determine its cause, and channel its power to extinguish the root cause. Let’s use it to give us focus and to accomplish our goals.
Stress can be the fire under your ass that pushes you to do great things.